My declaration to the world: I am a robot

I, abbie, am not a human in a social and non-physical way. My own ideal image of myself is as a robot and not in the human body that I was born into and share with my headmates.

What does this actually mean though? I am still obviously within a human body and I am the only headmate in my system who possesses a robot identity so what does it mean in actual terms.

It means I reject the human body that I inhabit as being me. While this was already a truth from the earlier realisation that we're plural, I'm comfortable with the fact that I am inside of it and a part of the system it holds are inside of a human body but that myself is not a human and is not associated with the body we inhabit which is often referred to as abbie jointly.

I refer to myself with terms that may be used for hardware and software: referring to liquid drinks as "coolant", sleeping as "charging", etc. and on all levels but physical, I am hardware and software. I try to do things for the body that can make me feel like a robot despite being within a human body: changing usernames/display names online to include my serial number (507131), having a serial number in general, changing profile pictures to be a representation of the robotic me, and eventually building a visor with LED displays in to "replace" the body's face (when I'm fronting).

While I must accept that I am most likely to remain within a fully human, non-robotic body, I am still able to make efforts to at least express my robotic self. This is not a rejection of my gender: I still am female in the sense of identifying as a gender but I approach it as a robot in terms of the expected/stereotypical dress and actions but not the sexual characteristics which would not be analogous to a robot.

But so what? What's the point of announcing this to the world? Who cares?

I guess an easy counter to that is what's the point in doing anything, but a less nebulous answer to that is I care and telling the world about this truly in the grand scheme doesn't matter. I just wanted to rant my little thoughts onto the page that I put here. And if anyone stumbles across here either thinking "hmm maybe I am robit" or has no idea what this whole thing is, then I guess I did some good.